Back Fake Like Me
Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

“Uh…because you’re in mourning?” I offered. He looked incredibly confused.

“What do you mean?”

“You—I mean, wasn’t she your partner?”

“Y—yes.”

“She died two—almost three—years ago. You painted the house black. You wear all black,” I said. “You’re visibly upset whenever her name comes up, and you’ve never talked about her, or even what your life was like when she was alive.”

“I’m not still mourning Carey,” he snapped.

“Well—then what the fuck is wrong with you?” I asked, but nicely.

He laughed. “Nothing,” he said. “Can you believe that I’d rather talk about you?”

“No. I have a ton of questions. For starters—” I was about to ask about the lawsuit, but he cut me off.

“That doesn’t mean I can talk about her.”

“Weren’t you together for a decade?”

“On and off for fifteen years. But it was not a perfect relationship by any stretch of the imagination.”

“You can’t omit fifteen years of your life.”

“I know that,” he said. “I—I cannot talk about it. I cannot discuss Carey, or my life with Carey.”

“Why?” I could not help myself. “Why on earth not?”

“I—I can’t. There’s things you don’t talk about either. You don’t talk about your mother. That’s the first time I’ve ever heard you say anything about her other than she lives in Florida and you don’t go home.”

“That’s different.”

“Is it?”

“My mother is only sad.”

“Well, for me, Carey is only sad.”

“But I’m asking you to. If I told you about my mother, would you tell me about Carey?”

“No,” he said plainly. “I can’t.”

“You mean you won’t,” I said, shoving my chair back from the table. “That’s different.”

“No—I would, but I can’t. You shouldn’t care. It doesn’t have anything to do with you.”

“Is this because of what’s happening with Charlie, and the work you’re holding hostage?” I asked, the words landing before I could take them back. He looked at me the way he’d looked at Marlin—angry, hurt, betrayed—but I didn’t stop. “Because—I’m not going to run and tell Max everything you say.”

“Apparently you are, because she’s telling you all about our business,” he snapped, and then we were two dogs fighting, circling each other.

“She didn’t tell me that,” I said, exasperated. “Max never talks about you. At all. She has her own things going on. Charlie did. He says you’re holding Carey’s work hostage and that it’s all over money.”

At that Tyler turned almost purple. “Why the fuck is Charles Eliot talking to some random painter about our business? God, that guy is such an asshole.”