Back Fake Like Me
Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

After dinner everyone took cocktails to go for a studio walk. Someone asked if we could go to mine, but before I could answer, Tyler spoke.

“She’s running the dehumidifier. Everything’s sealed for another few days,” Tyler lied, so smoothly, and as he said it I realized that I probably should do that. He winked at me and I smiled gratefully.

We walked up to Marlin’s first, where she gave everyone a small framed print: three stripes of iron-dust ink that looked like the fur of a metal caterpillar. There was even one for me.

“Thank you,” I said.

“Of course,” she said, but before I could say any more, someone was opening a flat file and demanding her attention. For ten minutes, her friends rifled through everything in her studio, oohing and aahing over recent works and reminiscing over older ones.

“I love this one,” Jeanne said. It was an old wheatpaste, brick dust still clinging to the back, peppered with holes and fragile as a ghost. A drawing of Carey.

Marlin looked at it sadly. “Me too,” she said, patting Jeanne’s hand. They hugged briefly, and a tear rolled down Jeanne’s cheek. Jack, meanwhile, had his arm around Tyler’s waist and was pivoting him toward Tom, who was telling an elaborate anecdote about falling down a well. Jes was nowhere to be seen.

Our next stop was Jack’s studio. The former Arts and Crafts pavilion was a soaring, peaked cabin filled to the brim with rolls of fabric, three vintage looms, and a scaffold. A large net was in progress, made from different colors of monofilament—fishing line—and swaths of parachute silk riddled with fabric flowers, woven leaves, yarn-wrapped ceramic objects, and glazed porcelain feathers. It was breathtaking—nearly religious in its delicacy and scope.

Jack swept in, shoving things from side to side, but the rest of us stepped lightly and carefully. When we were on the far side of the net, a waterfall of silk and plastic separating us from the rest of the group, Max clutched my arm and pointed to a little glass globe suspended from a golden coin, suspended so seamlessly within his aesthetic that I hadn’t even noticed it. “That’s exactly like the light Carey made for my house,” she said. I couldn’t tell if she was being derisive or not.

“I think they’re all doing that,” I whispered back. “I think she’s in all of their work.”

“You better watch out,” she said playfully.

Then Tyler’s arm brushed my waist, and my focus shifted so ardently that I have no idea what Max said after that.

Before our next stop, we fixed a fresh batch of drinks. Tyler caught my eye while I was mid-conversation with David Bird.

“You have to follow the work,” David was saying. “The work is the only thing that tells you who to be.”