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Chapters (42)
  1. Cover
  2. Title
  3. Dedication
  4. Carey Logan Retrospective Coming to Young Museum
  5. 1996
  6. Chapter One
  7. 2011
  8. Chapter Two
  9. Prudence
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Humility
  15. Chapter Seven
  16. Chapter Eight
  17. Chapter Nine
  18. Chapter Ten
  19. Chapter Eleven
  20. Chapter Twelve
  21. Chapter Thirteen
  22. Chapter Fourteen
  23. Chapter Fifteen
  24. Chapter Sixteen
  25. Chastity
  26. Chapter Seventeen
  27. Modesty & Temperance
  28. Chapter Eighteen
  29. Purity & Obedience
  30. Chapter Nineteen
  31. Chapter Twenty
  32. Chapter Twenty-One
  33. Chapter Twenty-Two
  34. Chapter Twenty-Three
  35. Chapter Twenty-Four
  36. One Year Later
  37. Chapter Twenty-Five
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. Discover Barbara Bourland
  40. About the Author
  41. Also by Barbara Bourland
  42. Reading Group Guide

I pulled one pink curl and let it spring back. “Real natural,” I said with a smile, ducking into my room.

“Your hair seems as though it grows that color.”

“I’m trying to dress up,” I said, pulling my purple dress on. “See?”

“Nice.” Tyler smiled. “There’s a stain from Max’s party, though.”

I frowned, picking at a spot of grass and dirt caked to my hip. “Atticus,” I muttered, spinning on my heel and marching to the closet. “My friend bought all my clothes and they’re all insane. I look like a teenage runaway.” Piles of dirty clothes coated the floors and shelves. I hadn’t done laundry for weeks. The only clean thing I found, a knee-length t-shirt with a male bodybuilder’s be-Speedoed beach body printed on the front and back, was both ugly and wildly inappropriate. Then I remembered the white dress from Maria’s boxes. Maybe that’s a better idea.

“One second,” I yelled. The zipper got stuck halfway up, and I backed out of the closet, tapping it. “Could you?” I asked.

His fingers touched the skin of my back and the fabric of my dress. I heard the sharp buzz of the zipper rise and rise and rise, but then it paused an inch or so before the top. I turned around, confused, and he glared at the dress. He looked slightly horrified. I patted the sides—had I ripped it? Didn’t it fit?

“Where’d you get this?” he asked.

“Maria’s boxes?” I said, a slow question. Uh-oh. “The boxes in the studio?”

“Maria.” He said her name quietly, like he was trying to recall who she was.

“Carey’s friend from home? She left behind her drawings in the studio. They were horrible.”

Startled, he ran a hand through his hair, twice in a row. “Oh. That’s what you meant.”

“She stayed in this house, I think,” I said, gesturing toward the closet. “Her initials are in there.” He didn’t look at the closet, or at me. He only looked at the ground.

“This was Carey’s dress,” he finally said, pulling the zipper back down, in ragged little yanks. I hated it—I hated how he tugged—but I was too stunned to move. Carey’s dress. Not Maria’s. I was such—I was such a creep. “I don’t think you should wear it.” Of course not. By the time I took over the zipper from his shaking hands, his cheeks were olive green, and sweat mobbed his hairline.