Tears start to drop down my face again and I nodded my head in agreement "To answer your question, I do want to be with him. I want him and I cannot think about not being with him. I want to be with him, but I can't be."

"I just want you to be happy, Ella." Lana voiced quietly "Whatever that is. I will support you."

Stone did not deserve it. He deserved better than someone that was a mess.

I was broken and I could not see myself ever being fixed again. I had already relied on him too much. I could not do it to him. I could not put him through all of what I was going through and be a burden.

I knew what I had to do.

After Lana seen that I had settled and I was no longer such a mess, she spoke up "My mom is waiting outside. I am going to go home for a quick shower and then I will stop off at your place for a change of clothes for you."

I nodded and that left me wincing at the smallest of movements.

"Mrs Lewis said that you will not be discharged today." She informed me before questioning "Is there anything you want me to grab for you?"

"Go home, Lana." I instructed softly "I am fine."

"Of course, I am staying." She sent a stern look my way and for the first time, it was a semi-scary one "I’m coming back as soon as I can. I already feel bad for leaving you now for an hour."

"Would you be able to get my laptop while you are out?" I sighed "I really need a distraction right now."

"Anything you want." She replied before smiling with tears in her eyes as she walked to the door "I love you, Freak Show."

Matching her smile, I responded with "I love you too, Barbie."

As soon as she was away, I was getting ready to hoist myself out of the bed. The room was starting to feel claustrophobic, and I needed to move. Ignoring the inflictions of pain that got more excruciating every millimetre I moved, I finally managed to manoeuvre myself, so I was standing and holding the bed for support.

I hissed every small step I took. The pain was the least of my concerns because I was too busy focusing on my balance. My legs felt like jelly. I only made it halfway across the room until I needed to stop.

A deep growl came from behind me "What the fuck are you doing?"

I stilled. I was about to face him and turn around, but it was too late.

Large hands gently scooped under my knees and hoisted me up. Stone pressed me against his chest in bridal style. His touch was so soft and delicate like he was trying not to hurt my body.