Lana instantly wrapped her arm around me and tried to remove the hair stuck to my face with the tears. I managed to move myself to the edge of the bed so she could get on and sit beside me. I let the heaviness of my head go and I rested on her shoulder while trying to contain my shaking.

I cried and cried for what felt like hours. I cried until I made myself sick. The image of my father was the only thing I could think about. My father before he started drinking. I would never get that back.

"What am I going to do?" I told myself as another sob erupted from me causing my body to ache.

My best friend wasted no time in asking "What do you mean?"

"Both my parents are dead." I voiced "I have lost them, and I feel like I have lost part of myself."

Taking my other hand, Mrs Lewis gave it a gentle squeeze "Please try and relax. You should not be putting too much stress on yourself."

"You need to time to process this, but everything will be okay." Lana inputted.

With the back of my hand, I attempt to clean myself up and stop the urge to break down further "I do not know why I am feeling like this. I lost him a long time ago."

"You just lost your dad, Ella."

They both tried to reassure me further that everything was going to be fine, but I did not believe any of it. I could not stop myself from crying. All I wanted to do was curl up on the bed and go back to sleep. I did not want to be awake, and I did not want to deal with everything.

"What about my apartment?" I breathed out in small pants "My dad always paid the expenses, and I was living off his life savings. Where am I going to live? What am I going to do—?"

"Ella." Lana called my name and cut off my rant "Of course you are coming to live with me. You do not need to worry about that or anything else."

"College." I spoke with a gasp "I was budgeting with what I had for living expenses and I was putting money away. Now it is pointless. I cannot afford it. Not when it is just around the corner."

I was listing insignificant things that did not really matter but I could not help it. Worry after worry piled on top of me.

"You are the smartest person I know. You will get a scholarship without a doubt." Lana affirmed.

After a while of comforting me, Mrs Lewis excused herself "I am going to go and see if the results from your blood tests and CT scans have come back."

She shut the door behind herself which left a hollowing silence in the room.