I could hear the gargoyles in the garden rumbling like elephants as I shut the door. A feeling of pity swept through me. Ivy was annoyed—but Ivy often was. I was angry—again, understandable. Jenks had parental guilt mixed with a strong streak of protection, and he was having the hardest time. “I’m sorry about Jax,” I said as I opened my closet door and shoved everything to one side. Maybe there was something at the back that I’d missed, but the only things there were the clothes my mom hadn’t wanted to take with her and were of too high a quality to give away.

Jenks’s expression lost its anger, and he sat, slumped on a perfume bottle, wings drooping. “I didn’t think I’d have to face Jax again,” he said softly, and my heart nearly broke.

“I imagine that’s what he’s thinking,” I said, and Jenks met my eyes. I pulled out a filmy scarf, drawing it through the air and letting it settle on my bed, thinking it might make a good sash. Maybe I should start with the boots and work my way up.

“I just want to . . . smack him,” Jenks said, gesturing weakly. “He doesn’t know how short life is. He’s throwing it away. He could be so much if he’d . . .”

“Come to the dark side?” I said, trying to lighten things up. Jenks was silent, his wings slowly regaining their usual color. Not the white leather dress. Not the black leather pants. My fingers trailed reluctantly off my usual leather. I’d be the same person I was before in it—I had to be different tomorrow. I felt different. My clothes should reflect that. I wanted something that said power, and everything I had said power and sex. Maybe Newt had the right idea with her martial-arts outfits and androgynous hairstyles. I wasn’t going to shave my head, but something more masculine might get the demons to stop looking at me like I was nothing but a pair of X chromosomes.

“Why don’t you ask him to come back to the church?” I said as I lingered over an off-white linen leisure suit of my mom’s from the ’70s, the entire era a bastion of post-Turn fashion freak-out. It had bell-bottoms, but it was also form fitting and flowing, the vest showing off my curves without screaming sex. In sudden decision, I pulled it into the light. “For good.”

“What?”

Draping it across the bed, I kicked off my boots to try it on. “If he’s through with Nick, ask Jax to come back. Maybe he’s afraid you don’t love him.”

“Don’t love him . . .” Jenks’s eyes were wide, and his mouth gaped.