Chapters (19)
Dina stood in front of the kebab shop and looked through the window. She could see Kassim cutting the doner kebab. He was wearing an apron. She watched him turn around to serve a customer, a tired-looking man with wispy hair combed over his balding forehead. Kassim sliced a loaf of pitta bread, put the doner kebab inside it. He held up a bottle of tahini. The man nodded. Kassim squeezed tahini into the sandwich. When the man shook his head at the offer of salad and hot sauce, Kassim put the sandwich into a brown paper bag. He wiped his hands on his apron, took a note from the man and opened the till. It was when he looked up, as the man was leaving, that he saw Dina. She saw his smile, surprised and happy to see her. It gave her this wide, good feeling that she associated with him; subconscious images of the sky rippling open, a healthy organ deep under the skin, succulence. He opened the door for her and said, ‘Salamu alleikum.’
It made her feel a bit self-conscious, this specifically Muslim greeting, new words she was not used to. She did not reply, only smiled and said, ‘I was just passing by.’
Minutes later she was sitting down at one of the two tables that were in the shop. Kassim got her a piece of doner pizza, a samosa and an onion bhaji. He refused to let her pay. Samia came in with her baby in a pushchair. She remembered Dina and kissed her hello. Samia and Basheer spoke in loud Arabic, which Dina couldn’t understand. Kassim interrupted them, ‘Basheer, can I get a break, half an hour or so? I’ll make it up later. Promise.’
When she finished eating, they went out for a walk. They walked along the beach. The sea was dark denim and sleek dolphins rose from the water and twisted back into it again. The wind blew Dina’s hair and the smell of the sea raised her spirits. She became talkative and bright. When they sat down on the sand, she leaned and kissed Kassim on the cheek, ran her fingers through his hair and beard. She expected him to turn round and kiss her, but he blushed, and though he did not move away from her, she sensed him tense and so she was the one who moved away.
He mumbled something about marriage.
‘Even to kiss?’ Her voice was soft. A dog barked in the background and the cries of the seagulls were jarring and rude.
He didn’t reply and she felt sorry for him in the way that people feel sorry for the crippled and the paralysed. It was a kind of pity that drew them apart rather than close.
‘Someone’s coming round to pick up clothes for the Syrian refugees. I’m going to give him Dad’s things.’