“I realize it must sound impertinent of me to even bring the matter up, My Lady,” he said now, his voice gruff, “but it seems the only way to avoid a probable political crisis. And it would be a way to keep the Key in her direct line.”

“But—” Allison stopped herself and drew a stylus from her pocket. She shoved it into her mouth, nibbling on it with small, white teeth in a bad habit that went clear back to her hospital residency days on Beowulf, and made herself consider the—request? offer? plea?—as calmly as possible.

It was amazing, she decided, how complex her own reaction was. She and Alfred were finally managing to come to grips with their daughter’s death—she better than he, she suspected, but still to come to grips with it. It hurt, and one of her own regrets had been that the two of them had deferred having a second child for so long. Perhaps that had been her fault, she mused. She was the one from cosmopolitan (read: crowded, stratified, smug, and obsessed with stability, she thought dryly) old Beowulf, where conspicuous contributions to population growth were more than simply frowned upon. Sphinx, on the other hand, was still a relatively new planet, with a total population of under two billion. Multichild families were the rule there, not the exception, and there was certainly no stigma attached to them.

And I always meant to have more children of my own, now didn’t I? Of course I did! That was one of the things that attracted me to Sphinx in the first place, when Alfred proposed. It was just… There were so many other things I needed to do, and it wasn’t like there was any rush. My “biological clock” won’t run down for another century or more yet!

But if they’d gone ahead, had those other children sooner, perhaps the savage blow of losing Honor wouldn’t have—

She cut that thought off… again. What might have happened couldn’t change what had happened, and even if it could have, producing more children simply as some sort of emotional insurance policy—a way to protect themselves from emotional trauma if one of their brood should die—would have been contemptible. And wouldn’t have worked anyway.

Yet now that Clinkscales had brought the idea up—and explained his reasons for it—she felt… uncomfortable. Part of it was probably that bone-deep, instinctive reaction of hers which made her dig in her heels whenever anyone tried to tell her she “had” to do something. She’d made a habit of setting herself harder, more challenging goals than anyone else would have dreamed of demanding of her, but let someone—anyone—tell her that she “had” to do something, that something was “expected of her,” or her “duty,” and her back went up in instant defiance. She felt quite certain that most of it stemmed from her childhood sense that Beowulf’s entire population had been out to pressure her into conforming to its expectations. Which was silly, of course. She’d realized that decades ago and worked on overcoming the spinal-reflex reaction ever since, yet it was still there, and she felt it stirring now.