Chapters (21)
In biro, she wrote on a piece of paper taken from an ancient stack in a bureau of the morning room.
Adamus, it is unfair of you to shut me out. I want to speak to you. This isn’t some idle whim. How long are you going to hide yourself, or can you?
Then she tore up this letter, and the two or three which followed it, and burned them in the fire.
Adamus was the Prince of Darkness. He would not answer at her call. A capricious and malevolent spirit, thing of shadows. He had imposed his will, or the will of the Scarabae on her. Now she must loosen their shackles. She must. She could. It was simple.
In fear she sat and thought of everything before her. She had been an imbecile and deserved nothing more kind.
She had better find the strength. She had better.
At about four in the morning, by the light of one candle, she thrust two more books into the new black bag, tested its weight, and did it up.
This time she had squashed some of her clothes inside, and several of the lighter books, the paperbacks. Into her everyday bag went make-up and toiletries. She could not take the radio, but as before she had acknowledged that. The quantities of books she must leave behind.
It was Tuesday, she had kept careful count.
The day of the van, perhaps, but that was not relevant. The van could not be used again. Surely Carlo and Cheta would prevent it, now.
She put on her coat and hauled the new bag up on to her back like a knapsack. It was heavy but tolerable. She would have to endure. The lesser bag she slung on to her shoulder.
Rachaela opened the door on the usual night-time blackness. She gripped the candle firmly.
The carvings swung, and up there an owl of wood stared at her among the leaves.
There was something wrong.
She knew it before she had reached the landing. A light burned in the hall, the red lamp.
She came out at the head of the stairs and looked down.
They were all there. All the Scarabae. She looked them over one by one, Unice and Alice, Peter and Dorian, Jack and George and Eric, Stephan was there and Anna, standing to one side, Teresa, Miranda, Anita, Sasha, Livia and Miriam. And Uncle Camillo in his armour with the lamp shining on the breastplate and helmet, and the vizor down so you could not see if he were laughing.
Rachaela had halted in her tracks.
She confronted them, waiting for one or all of them to speak.
How had they known?
Even, there, near the passage, the four servants, big Carlo among them. Ready to seize and stay?
‘I’m going,’ Rachaela said loudly. ‘I won’t be stopped.’
She held up the candle and began to descend the stairs.