Chapters (35)
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- ONE YEAR AGO
- PART I SEPTEMBER
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- PART II OCTOBER
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- PART III ONE WEEK LATER
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- PART IV NOVEMBER 3
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- PART V NOVEMBER 5
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- ONE YEAR LATER
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
Liam had a habit of blurting out the thing he most wanted not to blurt out. “ ‘I carry your heart with me…’ ” he began, quoting the e. e. cummings poem he’d just read in AP Lit, looking askance at the paintings that had been left to dry on one of the art tables because he still could not look at her. He attempted to translate the next part into Latin. “ ‘Ego autem in corde meo portare?’ ”
Shy stared at him and then giggled. It was the best response he could have hoped for.
“Sorry. I think I might have Asperger’s,” he mumbled at the art table. “Well, not officially, but after reading all her nursing textbooks, my mom and I decided I’m probably on the low end of the spectrum. I’m weirdly good at school and weirdly bad at everything else, so.”
“Are you saying ‘ass burgers’?” Shy asked, and Liam was grateful. Maybe it was only in the United States that Asperger’s was a household blanket term used for weirdos who did well in school. English people were more forgiving. Probably all the great English talents had Asperger’s. Peter Sellers, the whole Monty Python cast, Harry Potter. Shy herself was probably on the spectrum, which was why they were already getting along.
“Are you really going to tutor me, or can we just pretend to do math and talk about other stuff?”
Liam pointed at her Gucci sneakers, which were white leather with little bees in between the red, green, and black leather stripes. “Those are why no girl here ever talks to you. You know that, right?”
There, he’d done it again. What was wrong with him?
Shy looked down at her shoes. “My mom got them for free. She works for a magazine. Also, it’s ironic. I mean, look at the way I dress. These are boys’ jeans because my legs look weird in girls’ ones and my dad’s undershirt that he shrank by accident that I cut so it’s cropped.”
“Well,” Liam said, keeping his eyes on her shoes. “They’re still alienating. If you were a guy you’d probably get beaten up.”
“But this is a rich-person school, right? I mean, I get that feeling.” Shy only said this because her mother seemed to have chosen the snobbiest school in Brooklyn, probably because she thought it was the best.
“I guess. I go here for free because my dad teaches music to the little kids.”
Shy nodded. That was sweet but also a bit sad.
“And my mom used to be the nurse. She just changed to a public elementary school because they pay better, ironically. But you’re right,” Liam said. “For spring break and Christmas and summer and stuff everyone goes to like, Vail or Martinique. My family goes camping in the Berkshires or to Rockaway Beach.”
Shy had no clue about those places, but she agreed with him anyway.