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Chapters (49)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Praise for Charlotte
  4. Dedication
  5. 1811
  6. 1818–1819
  7. CHAPTER II
  8. CHAPTER III
  9. CHAPTER IV
  10. CHAPTER V
  11. CHAPTER VI
  12. CHAPTER VII
  13. CHAPTER VIII
  14. CHAPTER IX
  15. CHAPTER X
  16. CHAPTER XI
  17. CHAPTER XII
  18. 1811
  19. CHAPTER XIV
  20. CHAPTER XV
  21. CHAPTER XVI
  22. 1819
  23. CHAPTER XVIII
  24. CHAPTER XIX
  25. CHAPTER XX
  26. CHAPTER XXI
  27. 1812–1813
  28. CHAPTER XXIII
  29. CHAPTER XXIV
  30. CHAPTER XXV
  31. CHAPTER XXVI
  32. 1819
  33. 1815
  34. 1819
  35. CHAPTER XXX
  36. CHAPTER XXXI
  37. CHAPTER XXXII
  38. CHAPTER XXXIII
  39. CHAPTER XXXIV
  40. CHAPTER XXXV
  41. CHAPTER XXXVI
  42. 1820
  43. CHAPTER XXXVIII
  44. 1839
  45. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  46. A NOTE ON THE TEXT
  47. READING GROUP QUESTIONS
  48. FURTHER READING
  49. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

‘I cannot comprehend the enormity of your loss, my dearest Charlotte,’ she said. ‘To lose a beloved child, and a son, not yet four years old! It is too cruel, no matter how much reason – and indeed the teachings of your husband, and the convictions of mine – may attempt to console or soothe.’

She paused and wrung her hands. With the detached part of her brain, Charlotte registered that she had never seen her friend do such a thing before. Elizabeth went on, ‘I do not mean to burden you. That would be unfeeling, a piece of unkindness. But I must impose on our friendship, your patience, and good heart, even at such a time. I miscarried a few months ago. The baby was a boy.’

Charlotte raised her head, surprised and yet not surprised, uncertain what to say. Lizzy burst out, ‘It is the second child I have lost in these past three years. Charlotte, forgive me – while I cannot pretend to understand what it must be to have a living, breathing child perish, how my own losses gnaw at me!’

Now the brilliance of Elizabeth’s eyes owed something to the tears that trembled in them. ‘It has been a shock – a ruinous shock – to realise how ill-prepared I was for marriage. How ill-prepared both Mr Darcy and I were. We believed our regard for each other had been tested, that it had grown to overcome all that stood in our way – the distinctions between us, the differences in our temper, his pride, my hasty prejudice. He had done so much for me, my family. His love was in no doubt, and the strength of my feelings matched his. There was nothing, I thought, that we could not discuss, could not face together. I was a fool.’

She sat down at last on the sofa next to her friend, and said, ‘I did not see the truth that stared me in the face: a great man, from a great family, marries for one reason primarily: to beget heirs. Neither of us gave this any thought. We believed that children, a son – or two or three – would present themselves as if by magic. But it has been five and a half years, and there is still no infant in the nursery. I walk through the chambers of that great house, knowing myself to be the envy of many who do not consider me fit for the office of being its mistress. And I pass beneath the eyes of all those portraits, those Darcy ancestors, all witness to my failure, watching me break the chain.’

Charlotte murmured the necessary words of hope and encouragement, or at least she tried to, but Lizzy went on: ‘I live in terror of one of the stone-faced doctors who attend me opining that there can be no more children, or attempts to bear one. If that happens, Charlotte, I swear I shall jump off the Pemberley bridge.’