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Chapters (49)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Praise for Charlotte
  4. Dedication
  5. 1811
  6. 1818–1819
  7. CHAPTER II
  8. CHAPTER III
  9. CHAPTER IV
  10. CHAPTER V
  11. CHAPTER VI
  12. CHAPTER VII
  13. CHAPTER VIII
  14. CHAPTER IX
  15. CHAPTER X
  16. CHAPTER XI
  17. CHAPTER XII
  18. 1811
  19. CHAPTER XIV
  20. CHAPTER XV
  21. CHAPTER XVI
  22. 1819
  23. CHAPTER XVIII
  24. CHAPTER XIX
  25. CHAPTER XX
  26. CHAPTER XXI
  27. 1812–1813
  28. CHAPTER XXIII
  29. CHAPTER XXIV
  30. CHAPTER XXV
  31. CHAPTER XXVI
  32. 1819
  33. 1815
  34. 1819
  35. CHAPTER XXX
  36. CHAPTER XXXI
  37. CHAPTER XXXII
  38. CHAPTER XXXIII
  39. CHAPTER XXXIV
  40. CHAPTER XXXV
  41. CHAPTER XXXVI
  42. 1820
  43. CHAPTER XXXVIII
  44. 1839
  45. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  46. A NOTE ON THE TEXT
  47. READING GROUP QUESTIONS
  48. FURTHER READING
  49. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

One night she woke only an hour after retiring, with a new torment; her hands and feet possessed by a sense of heat and ferocious itching. She lay unquiet, trying to stave off the desire to scratch, and failing. As soon as she had attacked one spot with her nails, another began to itch. Then it was the turn of her scalp and the V of skin just beneath her throat.

In desperation, she threw back the bedclothes, and found a little relief in the chill air on her inflamed skin. Mr Collins was away overnight on a visit to his bishop, and Charlotte felt suddenly trapped, stifling, a bird caught in lime. She had to get out. Surely she could leave her sleeping children for an hour, with Katie slumbering in the attic room above?

She did not dress, but wrapped a heavy mantle and shawls over her nightgown, and went downstairs as quietly as possible, pushing her feet into boots kept in the mudroom, finding mittens in an apron pocket. She slipped out the back door, leaving it unlatched. No thieves would be abroad in this weather; the cold was intense, bracing, overwhelming – as she needed it to be. It bit at her skin, wrenched tears from her eyes, insisted that she keep moving.

She found the ruts in the lane difficult to navigate by faint starlight and a half-moon only, and turned into Rosings park; she would follow the paths there for a while, until the restlessness and burning left her limbs. She soon struck out across the frosted grass, the crunch under her boots as satisfying as the lungfuls of icy air she sucked in.

The silence was intense; no sleepy chirrup of bird or chime of church bell broke the spell of deep night. Only the sound of her own steps, the blood rushing in her ears, echoing her heartbeat.

And then her heartbeat took on a life outside her body, thudding into a distant gallop. It took a few minutes before Charlotte realised she was indeed hearing the drum of hooves, approaching fast. She had no time for more than a moment’s panic – what would highwaymen be doing on the Rosings estate? – when the shape of a horse and rider loomed, silver and black in the black and silver night, tangible more through scent and sound than vision. There was a long harrumphing snort, the equine form convulsed as it shied, a figure tumbled from its back with a thin cry, and the rhythm of hooves broke apart in panic.

Charlotte ran for the broken-bird figure on the ground, only to be sent back by the voice, which, to her amazement, belonged to a woman: ‘Catch him! Catch the damned horse, for God’s sake!’