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Chapters (49)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Praise for Charlotte
  4. Dedication
  5. 1811
  6. 1818–1819
  7. CHAPTER II
  8. CHAPTER III
  9. CHAPTER IV
  10. CHAPTER V
  11. CHAPTER VI
  12. CHAPTER VII
  13. CHAPTER VIII
  14. CHAPTER IX
  15. CHAPTER X
  16. CHAPTER XI
  17. CHAPTER XII
  18. 1811
  19. CHAPTER XIV
  20. CHAPTER XV
  21. CHAPTER XVI
  22. 1819
  23. CHAPTER XVIII
  24. CHAPTER XIX
  25. CHAPTER XX
  26. CHAPTER XXI
  27. 1812–1813
  28. CHAPTER XXIII
  29. CHAPTER XXIV
  30. CHAPTER XXV
  31. CHAPTER XXVI
  32. 1819
  33. 1815
  34. 1819
  35. CHAPTER XXX
  36. CHAPTER XXXI
  37. CHAPTER XXXII
  38. CHAPTER XXXIII
  39. CHAPTER XXXIV
  40. CHAPTER XXXV
  41. CHAPTER XXXVI
  42. 1820
  43. CHAPTER XXXVIII
  44. 1839
  45. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  46. A NOTE ON THE TEXT
  47. READING GROUP QUESTIONS
  48. FURTHER READING
  49. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

But after retiring to bed, she found herself as tense as always. She thrashed for what felt like hours, conscious of a semi-familiar pressure in her lower body she associated with the middle months of pregnancy. The heat of the wine had slid from her throat, chest and fingers to pool in her pelvis, thudding along with her pulse.

Charlotte did not have the vocabulary to give a name to sexual hunger, but she did know that the sense of urgency and loneliness she felt could no longer be endured. Sitting up in bed and flinging back the quilt, she called, ‘Mr Collins!’ Then, more loudly, ‘William!’ She was about to scramble out of bed to go and wake her husband when she heard footsteps and fumbling at the dressing-room door.

He stumbled into her bedchamber dishevelled in the dim light, and extremely anxious: ‘My dearest Charlotte, whatever is the matter? Are you taken ill? Must we send to Rosings? Should I wake the servants?’

By now, she had managed to light her bedside candle, hands shaking, and saw that he had come to her with such alacrity, he had not even put a shawl or gown on over his nightclothes. Unable to speak, but hoping he could see that nothing physical ailed her, she simply stretched out her arms. He bustled to her side and bent to embrace her. She snared him around the waist and lay back, tugging him towards her. At his slight resistance, born of confusion, she urged, ‘Get into bed, William. You’ll freeze to death otherwise.’

He scrambled under the covers with her, still hugging her awkwardly, still murmuring queries: ‘Are you in distress, my dear? Are you sure you are not ill, or in any pain?’

‘I am quite well. But I cannot sleep!’ It came out as a wail that caused Mr Collins to cluck with great tenderness. ‘Here,’ Charlotte added, with a fine disregard for logical sequence, ‘your feet are blocks of ice. Warm them on mine.’

They lay wordless for a minute, tangling their legs together, panting slightly. Then, with blind instinct, she pushed up the tail of his nightgown and ran her hands up his back, digging her nails into his flesh. He began to kiss her all over her face, and she was overtaken by animal hunger that had her dragging up her own gown, and lunging upwards with her hips.

He all but fell into her, burying himself in the warmest part of her, and they both groaned. It was usual during their congress for Charlotte to lie still, but this time she bucked under him, unable to stifle her cries. Within seconds, she began to spasm in an agony of relief. He gasped and shuddered in response, and tears welled from Charlotte’s eyes. It was a while before she realised that he too had shed the tears wetting her face.