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Chapters (39)
  1. COVER
  2. DEDICATION
  3. CHAPTER I.SICCA VENERIA.
  4. CHAPTER II.CHRISTIANITY IN SICCA.
  5. CHAPTER III.AGELLIUS IN HIS COTTAGE.
  6. CHAPTER IV.JUBA.
  7. CHAPTER V.JUCUNDUS AT SUPPER.
  8. CHAPTER VI.GOTHS AND CHRISTIANS.
  9. CHAPTER VII.PERSECUTION IN THE OFFING.
  10. CHAPTER VIII.THE NEW GENERATION.
  11. CHAPTER IX.JUCUNDUS BAITS HIS TRAP.
  12. CHAPTER X.THE DIVINE CALLISTA.
  13. CHAPTER XI.CALLISTA’S PREACHING, AND WHAT CAME OF IT.
  14. CHAPTER XII.A DEATH.
  15. CHAPTER XIII.AND RESURRECTION.
  16. CHAPTER XIV.A SMALL CLOUD.
  17. CHAPTER XV.A VISITATION.
  18. CHAPTER XVI.WORSE AND WORSE.
  19. CHAPTER XVII.CHRISTIANOS AD LEONES.
  20. CHAPTER XVIII.AGELLIUS FLITS.
  21. CHAPTER XIX.A PASSAGE OF ARMS.
  22. CHAPTER XX.HE SHALL NOT LOSE HIS REWARD.
  23. CHAPTER XXI.STARTLING RUMOURS.
  24. CHAPTER XXII.JUCUNDUS PROPOUNDS HIS VIEW OF THE SITUATION.
  25. CHAPTER XXIII.GURTA.
  26. CHAPTER XXIV.A MOTHER’S BLESSING.
  27. CHAPTER XXV.CALLISTA IN DURANCE.
  28. CHAPTER XXVI.WHAT CAN IT ALL MEAN?
  29. CHAPTER XXVII.AM I A CHRISTIAN?
  30. CHAPTER XXVIII.A SICK CALL.
  31. CHAPTER XXIX.CONVERSION.
  32. CHAPTER XXX.TORRES VEDRAS.
  33. CHAPTER XXXI.THE BAPTISM.
  34. CHAPTER XXXII.THE IMPERIAL RESCRIPT.
  35. CHAPTER XXXIII.A GOOD CONFESSION.
  36. CHAPTER XXXIV.THE MARTYRDOM.
  37. CHAPTER XXXV.THE CORPO SANTO.
  38. CHAPTER XXXVI.LUX PERPETUA SANCTIS TUIS, DOMINE.
  39. FOOTNOTES

His voice trembled as he spoke, but he soon recovered himself. “Suffer me,” he said. “I was saying that if you lived five hundred years on earth, you would but have a heavier load on you as time went on. But you will not live, you will die. Perhaps you will tell me that you will then cease to be. I don’t believe you think so. I may take for granted that you think with me, and with the multitude of men, that you will still live, that you will still be you. You will still be the same being, but deprived of those outward stays and reliefs and solaces, which, such as they are, you now enjoy. You will be yourself, shut up in yourself. I have heard that people go mad at length when placed in solitary confinement. If, then, on passing hence, you are cut off from what you had here, and have only the company of yourself, I think your burden will be, so far, greater, not less than it is now.

“Suppose, for instance, you had still your love of conversing, and could not converse; your love of the poets of your race, and no means of recalling them; your love of music, and no instrument to play upon; your love of knowledge, and nothing to learn; your desire of sympathy, and no one to love: would not that be still greater misery?

“Let me proceed a step further: supposing you were among those whom you actually did not love; supposing you did not like them, nor their occupations, and could not understand their aims; suppose there be, as Christians say, one Almighty God, and you did not like Him, and had no taste for thinking of Him, and no interest in what He was and what He did; and supposing you found that there was nothing else anywhere but He, whom you did not love and whom you wished away: would you not be still more wretched?

“And if this went on for ever, would you not be in great inexpressible pain for ever?

“Assuming then, first, that the soul always needs external objects to rest upon; next, that it has no prospect of any such when it leaves this visible scene; and thirdly, that the hunger and thirst, the gnawing of the heart, where it occurs, is as keen and piercing as a flame; it will follow there is nothing irrational in the notion of an eternal Tartarus.”

“I cannot answer you, sir,” said Callista, “but I do not believe the dogma on that account a whit the more. My mind revolts from the notion. There must be some way out of it.”