“Or that you’ll need more than one,” Meg adds.

“That’s what adventures are for,” I say and pour three shots of vodka.

“Launching your vintage Vuitton duffel into the Tyrrhenian Sea?” Rufus asks as he takes his glass.

“Trying new things,” I say.

“Cheers to that,” Meg says and raises her glass. “And to Noa Callaway, for turning in the book just in time for you to have a whole lot of reckless Italian sex.”

“Let me get this straight,” Rufus says to Meg as we clink. “You want Lanie to be careful on her motorcycle but careless in the sheets?”

“Risk/reward,” Meg says and drains her glass. “Falling out of bed is only a two-foot drop.”

I laugh and drink, but I find myself picturing the bed in Noah’s apartment. I wish I were with him, that we were making our way through the zinfandel and fried chicken, and he was telling stories about his mom before she was sick. That we were playing chess and I was winning, or that we were both reading beside his fireplace—

I stop myself. Noah couldn’t have gotten me out of his apartment faster with a can of Mace tonight. Our relationship is professional. I need to stay clear on that.

I meet Meg’s eyes as we sip. We share a glance, but I can’t tell if she’s picking up on my cues. I want to find a chance to talk to her alone before she leaves tonight, to let her know I talked with Noah today about the pseudonym.

“Ladies,” Rufus says, “I know.”

“You know what?” Meg says.

“I know Noa Callaway is that sexy guy Lanie was hiding from at Emergency Brunch.”

“How did you know that?” I gasp.

“I didn’t tell him!” Meg says.

“I’ve known since that day he sent you tulips. Your pheromones were glowing. So I put a few things together. I figured I’d wait for you to tell me, but I’m not going to sit here all night watching you two shoot meaningful glances over my head.” He pours himself more vodka. “And people say men aren’t perceptive.”

“You’ve known all this time?” I ask. “It doesn’t bother you he’s a man?”

“What’s the big fucking deal?” Rufus says.

“Wait a minute,” Meg says. “Pheromones?”

“No.” I wave my hands. “It’s not—”

“Lanie,” Rufus says in his life-coach voice. “Remember how bad you are at lying.”

I scoop some cabbage onto a pierogi, take a steamy, stalling bite. “Fine,” I say with my mouth full. “I want him.”

Meg gasps.