He worried and worried.

Yuichi was going to tell him it was over when they got up.

He continued to torment himself as he watched Yuichi sleep.

It was so natural for him to like Yuichi.

I like him. I love him. I love him more than anyone.

He was so happy that they had started dating. He had been ecstatic when Yuichi had called them lovers.

But that was a long time ago.

Every time they had had sex, Kanae couldn’t help but think about that girl.

Where had Yuichi been? Who had Yuichi been with?

If Kanae had been a friend, then he wouldn’t mind. It wasn’t his business then. He didn’t have any rights to tell Yuichi what to do. They weren’t just “friends” anymore, though. They were lovers, even if he had known that it would only last until Yuichi found his next girlfriend.

It was painful. His heart was crying out in pain.

He had been so happy…

They’d been together everyday. They had spoken everyday. They had laughed and kissed and made love. They had been like real lovers.

He had been mistaken though.

Even though he had told himself not to, he had started to think of the two of them as lovers.

It had been two months since they had started dating. A record for Yuichi since college began.

Yuichi had told him how sexy he was so many times.

They kissed, they had sex. They had done it all the time.

His first time had been with Yuichi.

That was good enough.

He couldn’t hope for anything more.

He’d been blind to think that it could last.

Only think of me. Only do it with me. Only date me.

He knew that he wouldn’t be able to hold these feelings in forever.

So before that happens…

It was special. He wanted to keep this treasured moment in his life, special and clean. He didn’t want a messy, upsetting break up.

“I love you.” Kanae gently kissed Yuichi’s forehead. “I really love you. I love you so much.”

Yuichi’s forehead, his ears, his nose and then his lips. He wanted to remember it all.

The person that was no longer going to be his.

The person who wouldn’t be by his side anymore.

“…thank you.”

It was only two months, but it was the happiest time of his life.

That was enough.

That was it.

“I’m so happy that I met you, Yuichi.”

He gave him one final kiss.

It was to be the last kiss.

He stayed until dawn watching Yuichi sleep. When it was seven, he quietly got out of bed.

“I forgot I have a report so I’m going to school early.”

He left a note and then left the room. The last time he would come back here was tonight.

Tonight, to break up with him.

He wouldn’t have any regrets.

Kanae smiled, and he walked only looking ahead.

Chapter 6

“Was your report okay?”

As always Kanae had gone to the cafeteria at lunchtime and found Yuichi sitting in his usual seat. Kanae sat in front of him and grinned.