Back Bluebird
Chapters (46)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. DEDICATION
  3. FIRST PART
  4. BIRD’S EYE
  5. GORDON
  6. KELLY
  7. BEN
  8. LOU
  9. ALL FILLER NO KILLER
  10. NEXT PART
  11. BIRD’S EYE
  12. THE FIREHOUSE
  13. RONALD
  14. COURT
  15. THE FALL
  16. THIS PART
  17. BIRD’S EYE
  18. CRICKET
  19. HONEST
  20. THE PRODIGAL STEPSON
  21. THE MAN IN THE IRONED SHORTS
  22. THE COUNTRY CLUB
  23. SAFE SPACES
  24. THE SUNSHINE THAT KILLS US
  25. THE FUNDRAISER
  26. THE CLIFF
  27. FIGHT NIGHT
  28. SHAMELESS
  29. ONE FOR THE ROAD
  30. LAST PART
  31. BIRD’S EYE
  32. A MISUNDERSTANDING
  33. THE NEWS
  34. SISTERS
  35. VYVANSE
  36. STRAW MAN
  37. THE RIGHT WAY
  38. THE KICK
  39. BOYS
  40. FOR THE AGES
  41. PERSONAL EFFECTS
  42. SACRIFICE
  43. PERFECT PEACE
  44. PAST ITS BEST
  45. UP NORTH
  46. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

When the light turned, Ron levered himself off the kerb and began his long trek across Bream. Gordon, tooted by the car behind, was tempted to leave his father to his adventure, but Ron might just make it to Norma’s place, where he would unleash havoc. The man’s iron will to escape was admirable, even awesome. If character is a composition of desire, Ronald Grimes was certainly a character. His desire was pretty much all there was left of him.

As Gordon kerb-crawled along Whiting, Ron gave him a distant glance and forged ahead. It wasn’t that Ron had dementia, though many of Norma’s friends, no doubt intending kindness, offered it as an amateur diagnosis. Ron wasn’t failing to recognise his son; he was refusing.

Gordon was reluctant to make a scene. But while he admired his father’s determination, he also had to stop him getting to Norma’s. It was a matter of safety. Ron’s kidney disease had reached the point where, as his specialist put it, his head was ‘literally full of piss’ and he was incapable of rational thought. Never a patient man, Ron now burnt on a permanent one-inch fuse. Norma was scared of his rages, and though Gordon had never seen any evidence of physical violence, you never knew what went on inside a marriage. Not your parents’. Not even your own.

Until this year, when Ron had still been living with Norma, as his uraemia advanced his strength had failed. He kept passing out and cracking his head on floors private and public. There was a series of hospitalisations. With his uncontrollable outbursts, his delusional insistence on driving his car, and his wild and woolly late-night forays into the medicine cabinet—to organise his pills into a Monday-to-Sunday dispenser would have been an intolerable concession to the nanny state—Norma could no longer handle him at home. Ron disagreed. But after his last fall, he was transferred from hospital to a residential nursing home, which marked the declaration of his one-man war of independence.

Gordon pulled over on Whiting and waited for Ron to wheel himself along.

‘Bit hot to be out, isn’t it?’

Ron paused, gave him a bland sneer, and kept going. Gordon got out of his car and fell into slow step alongside the squealing walker.

‘Maybe I can give you a lift? Where are you going?’

‘Don’t need you. I’m taking my exercise. Unless’—Ron eyed the Car With No Name—‘you’d like me to do the driving?’

‘Not in this lifetime.’