Back Bluebird
Chapters (46)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. DEDICATION
  3. FIRST PART
  4. BIRD’S EYE
  5. GORDON
  6. KELLY
  7. BEN
  8. LOU
  9. ALL FILLER NO KILLER
  10. NEXT PART
  11. BIRD’S EYE
  12. THE FIREHOUSE
  13. RONALD
  14. COURT
  15. THE FALL
  16. THIS PART
  17. BIRD’S EYE
  18. CRICKET
  19. HONEST
  20. THE PRODIGAL STEPSON
  21. THE MAN IN THE IRONED SHORTS
  22. THE COUNTRY CLUB
  23. SAFE SPACES
  24. THE SUNSHINE THAT KILLS US
  25. THE FUNDRAISER
  26. THE CLIFF
  27. FIGHT NIGHT
  28. SHAMELESS
  29. ONE FOR THE ROAD
  30. LAST PART
  31. BIRD’S EYE
  32. A MISUNDERSTANDING
  33. THE NEWS
  34. SISTERS
  35. VYVANSE
  36. STRAW MAN
  37. THE RIGHT WAY
  38. THE KICK
  39. BOYS
  40. FOR THE AGES
  41. PERSONAL EFFECTS
  42. SACRIFICE
  43. PERFECT PEACE
  44. PAST ITS BEST
  45. UP NORTH
  46. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

Sam’s eyes bugged. ‘Sign?’

‘The Visitors Welcome sign at the top of the path. Years ago. Carl burnt it down.’

Sam half laughed. ‘Who said you can ever stop learning something new, no matter how long you’ve lived in a place?’

‘They even tracked down Lou and Jude driving south. Lou’s car cracked its axle when it hit a pothole. Apparently it was badly unbalanced.’

‘The coffee machine?’

‘The La Marzocco. They questioned her about why and when she’d left The Lodge that day. It takes them a while to figure out the causes of fires. But they seem very interested in the StairLift.’

‘The electric chair.’

‘Possibility of an electrical fault. She told me they were asking her all about her installation and if there was a chance the wooden staircase could have been set alight first, and then it spread to the house.’

‘So it could have been an accident?’

‘Everything can always be an accident.’

After a lengthy silence, Sam said, ‘Shit of a week, eh.’

‘I’ve seen The Lodge burn down and my father taken to hospital after causing the death of yours. We could call it quite a week.’ Gordon felt guilty at the thought, but his gut told him that Ron had engineered the car accident to rid himself of Tony. The most meaningful conversation anyone had heard them exchange consisted of two words. ‘Ron.’ ‘Tony.’ Those men.

‘Do you reckon he meant it?’ Sam asked, reading Gordon’s thoughts.

‘I don’t think we’ll ever know.’

‘But what do you reckon?’

‘What do you reckon?’

‘I asked you first.’

‘How old are we, twelve?’

‘I’m twelve,’ Sam said seriously, ‘and you’re eight.’

After a pause to take this in, Gordon said, ‘Who else was left for him to blame? Me?’

Sam averted his eyes, as if he had seen in Gordon, buried—in a shallow grave—in his paternal DNA, a capacity for violence that he had never before suspected.

‘So who were you protecting?’ Gordon said. ‘Me or your father?’

A tremor in Sam’s neck told Gordon that he didn’t need to explain.

‘Bluebird. We were protecting Bluebird, so we could stay.’

‘You talked me into telling a lie.’

‘I was shitting myself, brother, I didn’t know what I was doing. We just had to cover our arses. I didn’t want you to have to live with being the kid who kicked his brother off a fucking cliff, and you can’t tell me I was wrong.’

‘And look where that got us. I don’t even trust what I remember anymore.’

‘We’re no different from anyone else, brother. We made our bed and shitted our own shit in it.’

‘Who do you think killed him?’

A sad whistle, like the signal for the end of a factory shift, came through Sam’s nose. ‘All of us. None of us. An accident. What’s the diff?’