Back Bluebird
Chapters (46)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. DEDICATION
  3. FIRST PART
  4. BIRD’S EYE
  5. GORDON
  6. KELLY
  7. BEN
  8. LOU
  9. ALL FILLER NO KILLER
  10. NEXT PART
  11. BIRD’S EYE
  12. THE FIREHOUSE
  13. RONALD
  14. COURT
  15. THE FALL
  16. THIS PART
  17. BIRD’S EYE
  18. CRICKET
  19. HONEST
  20. THE PRODIGAL STEPSON
  21. THE MAN IN THE IRONED SHORTS
  22. THE COUNTRY CLUB
  23. SAFE SPACES
  24. THE SUNSHINE THAT KILLS US
  25. THE FUNDRAISER
  26. THE CLIFF
  27. FIGHT NIGHT
  28. SHAMELESS
  29. ONE FOR THE ROAD
  30. LAST PART
  31. BIRD’S EYE
  32. A MISUNDERSTANDING
  33. THE NEWS
  34. SISTERS
  35. VYVANSE
  36. STRAW MAN
  37. THE RIGHT WAY
  38. THE KICK
  39. BOYS
  40. FOR THE AGES
  41. PERSONAL EFFECTS
  42. SACRIFICE
  43. PERFECT PEACE
  44. PAST ITS BEST
  45. UP NORTH
  46. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

‘You’re not in trouble, my love,’ Kelly said, but Ben wasn’t taken in by her tender tone. He looked to his uncle for a signal. Carl was leafing through his chapbook. Daniel was sitting with his arms folded, offering Ben an encouraging nod.

‘Wait, what happened?’

‘It can’t keep going on,’ Daniel said.

‘The jig’s up, mon ami.’ Carl’s voice came from the dark side of his chapbook. ‘Sorry, I guess.’

From behind his back Ben heard his father laugh, but not humorously.

‘I guess you should be happy that everyone else knew about it before me,’ Gordon said, bringing a camp chair and unfolding it next to Daniel.

‘Just like when you edited the News …’ Kelly said.

‘You read it here last.’ Gordon shot her a wink and gestured for her to sit in the camp chair.

Ben loosened a little to see this exchange between his mum and dad. They seemed friendly—not to him, exactly, but chilled with each other. That was new.

‘I don’t know what I’m meant to say,’ Ben said to his father.

‘What’s the only hope you have of not making things worse?’ Gordon asked.

‘Tell the truth, I guess.’

‘There you go.’ Gordon’s relaxed air had fallen away and his face was dark. He went and fetched another camp chair for himself. It didn’t match the one he’d given Kelly.

Now Ben felt bad again. He desperately wanted Carl or Daniel to tell him what to say.

‘Carn,’ Daniel said. ‘Spill it.’

More than his parents’ urgings, more than Uncle Carl’s surrender, more even than the incriminating bottle of Vyvanse on the card table, it was Daniel’s encouragement that told Ben he had to speak the truth.

‘Wait, what’ll happen to me? If you get off, aren’t I in the shit?’

Daniel shrugged. ‘Nothing goes beyond these four walls. That was part of the deal.’

‘What deal?’

‘Just tell them, and I’ll play in the final.’ Daniel gave him another smile. ‘You’re a brave guy, Ben. You’ve come out in front of the whole school. You can do this.’

‘You’re happy that everyone thinks you’re a drug dealer?’ Ben said.

‘I am a drug dealer. I just reckon they should know that I’m not your uncle’s drug dealer.’

‘And if I tell them, you’ll play in the final.’

Daniel nodded.

‘And nothing more will happen to me.’

‘Glad you’re thinking logically.’

‘But why? Why are you wanting all this out?’

From behind his chapbook, Carl said, ‘Think of the knight on the horse charging at the windmills, mon ami. He needs his short fat friend.’ Carl lowered his book so Ben could see his face. ‘Daniel and I came to a decision. Turns out the short fat friend is you.’

‘Ben,’ Gordon said. Ben looked at his stricken father. ‘Everyone’s spilt their guts. Your turn.’