Back Bluebird
Chapters (46)
  1. COVER PAGE
  2. DEDICATION
  3. FIRST PART
  4. BIRD’S EYE
  5. GORDON
  6. KELLY
  7. BEN
  8. LOU
  9. ALL FILLER NO KILLER
  10. NEXT PART
  11. BIRD’S EYE
  12. THE FIREHOUSE
  13. RONALD
  14. COURT
  15. THE FALL
  16. THIS PART
  17. BIRD’S EYE
  18. CRICKET
  19. HONEST
  20. THE PRODIGAL STEPSON
  21. THE MAN IN THE IRONED SHORTS
  22. THE COUNTRY CLUB
  23. SAFE SPACES
  24. THE SUNSHINE THAT KILLS US
  25. THE FUNDRAISER
  26. THE CLIFF
  27. FIGHT NIGHT
  28. SHAMELESS
  29. ONE FOR THE ROAD
  30. LAST PART
  31. BIRD’S EYE
  32. A MISUNDERSTANDING
  33. THE NEWS
  34. SISTERS
  35. VYVANSE
  36. STRAW MAN
  37. THE RIGHT WAY
  38. THE KICK
  39. BOYS
  40. FOR THE AGES
  41. PERSONAL EFFECTS
  42. SACRIFICE
  43. PERFECT PEACE
  44. PAST ITS BEST
  45. UP NORTH
  46. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

‘She’s been an amazing mentor to him,’ Jude said, eyes lingering on Lou and the girls’ crew.

‘Ben told you that?’

‘Kids that age need one adult they can talk with.’

‘It used to be me and Gordon.’

‘Not many choose a parent.’

‘Or the principal.’

‘A role that’s evolved since our day.’

‘Right.’ Kelly reached out to remove the Onassis sunglasses, which Jude permitted with as much ceremony as if Kelly were disrobing her. ‘What’s going on between Ben and Daniel?’

‘Ben and Daniel? I think Ben arrives at school each morning aware that he has to watch every step. He’s negotiating a maze of social factors. It’s not easy for him to assert his unorthodox self while fitting in with a group that has a low tolerance for unconventionality. But we see the entire school as a safe space.’

‘Again, in English?’

Jude took Kelly in, amused. She removed her sunglasses from Kelly’s hand and replaced them on her face. ‘Daniel’s a complicated young man. But the road ahead of him is different. Ben has a mother and father who are supportive, a sister figure in Lou whom he can open up to, and a certain imperviousness to other people’s opinions.’

‘Others were accepted quicker.’

‘He needs to understand that it’s not required for him to evangelise. He feels sorry for Daniel and wants to help him, but what worked for Ben isn’t necessarily the solution for Daniel.’

‘Meaning it’s harder for an alpha male with a knobhead father.’

‘Maybe we should just leave Daniel alone. That’s what I’ve been telling Ben. Celebrate your own growth, you’re not responsible for anyone else’s.’

It was an interesting perspective, Kelly thought, as she picked Ben out in the crowd, running plastic bottles to the girls for a last sip before they pushed their surfboat into the southern rip. Ben, scrawny-daggy in his loose white T-shirt and cricket hat, scurried about picking up the bottles the girls tossed onto the sand. Lou was barking orders.

‘That doesn’t bring me any closer to knowing what’s going on,’ Kelly said.

‘Was it meant to?’ Jude’s smile was interrupted by the sight of Carl, a few rows away, beside Leonie, two fingers in his mouth, whistling support for Lou’s team. Kelly had spent her teens practising vainly to whistle like this. Carl’s old charisma.

‘As for that one,’ Jude said.

‘My brother?’

‘I found him inside the school the other day. He had apparently been running away from some boys who were trying to assault him.’

‘“Apparently.”’

‘There’s more to it but I can’t figure out what.’

‘There’s always more to it with him. Is there anything I can do?’

Jude considered, then shook her head. ‘You and Gordon haven’t been lucky with your brothers.’