Back Birds in Fall
Chapters (35)
  1. Cover
  2. Colophon
  3. Also by Brad Kessler
  4. Copyright
  5. Dedication
  6. Epigraph
  7. I
  8. One
  9. Two
  10. Three
  11. Four
  12. Five
  13. Six
  14. Seven
  15. Eight
  16. Nine
  17. Ten
  18. II
  19. Eleven
  20. Twelve
  21. Thirteen
  22. Fourteen
  23. Fifteen
  24. Sixteen
  25. III
  26. Seventeen
  27. Eighteen
  28. Nineteen
  29. Twenty
  30. Twenty-One
  31. Twenty-Two
  32. Twenty-Three
  33. In April, he perched on a witch hazel. . .
  34. In Gratitude
  35. About the Author

Fifty feet away, Diana Olmstead watched Pars and Ana and the Mountie below. She sat on a boulder, her cane to one side. For such a large woman, she looked remarkably elegant, sitting upright, one leg crossed, the other dangling over the rock. She too had been waiting to be near the site, to be near them. For she was convinced her sister was out there over the ocean, along with all the other souls of the dead. She could feel it at that moment, the air slightly electric, as if a current were humming overhead. She’d had this feeling many times before, when her granddaughter had been born and she was in the hospital room, when her own husband died at home in bed: the same door that both life and death passed through.

She sat quietly on the rocks, her eyes half closed, fingers lightly cradling a string of prayer beads. She’d brought the beads back from Dharamsala, each one carved from the bodhi tree, anchored with a tiny hammered silver ball and a small tassel of dyed yak wool. She fingered the string with her right hand as she recited the little she remembered of the Bardo Todrol Chenmo, from the Tibetan Book of the Dead—which she’d studied for a year in Dharamsala. It was important particularly at that moment, just as it was when she’d first learned the news, to be calm and focused, to be free from negative thoughts. For this was the delicate time, the narrow time, the intermediate state, when the souls of the dead needed help; and by reciting the words over and over—a kind of Kaddish, a friend once called it—she gave guidance and comfort to the dead, especially those who’d died violently and unexpectedly, those who needed it the most. The chanting helped the dead pass from their present form into their next incarnation.