It’s two in the morning and he thinks he is going to jump. Maybe jumping is all that’s left to do. And is it pathetic that a part of him doesn’t want to jump because he is afraid of what his boss would say when he doesn’t show up at work tomorrow?

But that’s exactly the problem. The reason why he is here, on this roof, in the first place. He worked so hard making a living, he forgot to live. Now this cliché that you can find on a cheap mug at a dollar store has brought him to the point of suicide.

He had his chance and he blew it.

He should’ve run after her faster.

And when he almost reached her, he should have yanked the back of her shirt without caring what it’d look like.

He should have told her she was perfect.

But he didn’t, so now he needs to jump.

Jump . . . or do something else. Even more ambitious. Pack a bag and go to New Orleans. To look for her.

My eyes sting. It looks like a short story. Or the beginning of a novel. I flip the pages, eager for more, but an array of blank pages stare back at me.

A hand presses against my shoulder, making my head jerk up.

“No reading, missy!”

Pippa is all drunken, swaying limbs. I sag with relief because it’s not the owner of the notebook. I also slump with disappointment—for the exact same reason.

“Come. Get shit faced. Live a little.” Pippa tosses the notebook to the sand, then pulls me up and dances her way to a cluster of people. A ring of bronzed bodies moves around us, trapping me in. I shift my feet from side to side, awkward like the skin I’m in has been newly sewn onto me. I try to guess who the journal belongs to. The girl with the locs? The guy with the chest tats?

I drift away from Pippa. She is dancing with her new friends, shouting all the lyrics to the songs in their faces.

I make my way toward the sea. By the shore is the only slice of sand that’s not populated. I stop. Take a closer look at the famous Neptuno de Melenara. It’s a four-meter-tall sculpture of Neptune rising from the sea, not too far away from the coastline. The water is metallic blue. It glimmers under the stars. I dip a toe into it. The temperature isn’t freezing. I could swim my way to the statue. I’m a strong swimmer. My brother and I grew up surfing. Renn (his name means “reborn” or “little prosperous one”) has even made a career out of it.

A small voice inside me tells me I’m being a dumbass. That getting into an unfamiliar body of water in the pitch black is a rookie’s mistake. But the sculpture is less than a hundred feet away, and there’s a whole freaking party behind me. It’d be hard to lose sight of that.