“But tomorrow we will be in Beshtanag,” Blaise said brusquely. “Which is a trap. You have said so yourself, Staccian. I mean to give warning to my lord Aracus Altorus. I spoke the truth, before. You acquitted yourself well. Now I need to know: Do you stand with us or against us? Will you pledge your loyalty to me?”

Carfax blinked, his vision streaked by tears. Why was it that the rest of the world seemed so far away? It felt like a lifetime had passed since he set out from Darkhaven. These people had become his companions, the only ones left to him. He had traveled with them, eaten with them, fought with them back-to-back. One had sacrificed himself to save his worthless life. He remembered Hobard, his father’s sword in his hand and urgency straining his bloodstained face, the wave of Were that had swallowed him. This is my death. Go!

But …

He remembered Turin, Hunric; the men he had left behind, obedient to his orders. He remembered the men he had led and how they had trusted him. How he had led them into battle, singing, sure of victory. They had been good comrades, and true. They had trusted his leadership, and General Tanaros had trusted him to lead them. And he had erred in his folly and the earth had risen to engulf them. He was a traitor, aye. He had saved Dani’s life. He had admitted that Beshtanag was a trap, and Lord Satoris’ raven had watched him do it. Oh, aye, Carfax of Staccia was a traitor of the first order, but he was man enough still not to profit by it. Not while his own men rotted in barrows beneath the sedge grass.

“I can’t.” The words came harshly, catching in his throat. The tears were flowing freely, coursing his cheeks. “Forgive me, Blaise, but I can’t.”

The Borderguardsman nodded with regret.

“Carfax, please!” Fianna’s face swam in his vision, and there were tears in her own eyes, shining on her cheeks. How not? Archer or no, she was a woman, and women reckoned the cost. Always, women reckoned the cost. Her hands found his, gripping them tightly. “You saved my life! How can you name yourself aught but a friend?”

“I wasn’t prey.” He blinked at her, clutching her hands. Soft, so soft, save for the bowstring’s calluses. “Do you understand? The Were wouldn’t attack me. I might as well have struck an unarmed man.”

“As they did!” Her voice rose. “You defended Dani, too, who never raised his hand to anyone! Where is the wrong in that?”