At the End of Everything
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- Nine
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- Eleven
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- Twenty-seven
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- Thirty
- Thirty-one
- Thirty-two
- Thirty-three
- Thirty-four
- Epilogue
- Author’s Note
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
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Contents
Front Cover
Title Page
Copyright
One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Nine
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
Thirteen
Fourteen
Fifteen
Sixteen
Seventeen
Eighteen
Nineteen
Twenty
Twenty-one
Twenty-two
Twenty-three
Twenty-four
Twenty-five
Twenty-six
Twenty-seven
Twenty-eight
Twenty-nine
Thirty
Thirty-one
Thirty-two
Thirty-three
Thirty-four
Epilogue
Author’s Note
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Back Cover
CONTENT WARNING
This book deals with ableism, abuse, death, illness and implied eugenics, imprisonment, and transphobia. In addition, it includes mentions of assault, blood, gunshots, racial profiling, and sexual violence.
One
Logan
We are the last ones.
Leah and I squeeze into the hallway just in time for movement line. There’s eight of us to a wing, and the six others are already standing in front of their doors underneath the fluorescent light, all in various stages of awake. Thankfully, there are no guards in sight yet.
Next to me, Leah yawns. “So early,” she whispers.
I elbow her. It’s always early.
Life at the Hope Juvenile Treatment Center follows a routine. That’s a good thing. Lights go on at six. The day starts at seven with movement line, a head count, and breakfast. Our cohort—the east and the south wings—starts school at eight, while the other two wings have school in the afternoon. Lunch is at noon. Half an hour of recreation time. Twice a week, it’s followed by PE. And therapy or group therapy or work in the communal garden.
Then another count. Dinner. Recreation. Lights out at nine.
It’s the schedule Leah and I were given when we got here nine months ago. It’s never changed.