"Dancing?" I mumbled, toying with a lock of hair at the back of his neck.

I felt his chuckle deep in his chest. "No, stupid. Just doing this. Going out and having fun and not worrying about falling in love or being alone. Nothing ever has to change, we'd never have to worry about getting hurt. Wouldn't that be great?"

If I hadn't been drunk, it would have sounded as messed up as it really was. Instead, I looked up at Max as though he'd cured cancer and world hunger simultaneously. "That's so smart."

"I know." He frowned. "I always get my best ideas when I'm drank."

The bartender called us a cab—rather ungraciously—and I'm sure Max overpaid the driver when we got out at his building.

"This place—" I interrupted myself with a dainty belch. "This place looks like Dracula's castle."

"I know. It's depressing." A fleeting look of sadness crossed his face. "That was Marcus for you."

When we got into the elevator, Max stood a little closer than usual. When we got out, he took my hand for the short walk to the door. Instead of opening it, he pulled me flush against his body and kissed me, the scent of Bell's Two-Hearted ale lingering on his mouth.

I had consumed a lot of alcohol myself, but not so much to silence the alarm bells going off in my head. I jerked back so fast our teeth clinked.

"Max, what the hell are you doing?"

Dazed, he squinted at me for a few seconds before he focused his eyes, then grinned. "Oh, come on, Carrie. You know you're curious, too."

I was. Max was like the star quarterback every girl wants to date. Still, he was an emotional wreck and not thinking clearly. "I know you're upset about Bella—"

"This isn't about Bella." He laughed a little too loudly. "Jeez, you're always talking about her. Are you sure you don't want to fuck her?"

"No, but if we went to bed now, you wouldn't be fucking me." I jabbed my finger into his chest, not merely to make a point but because touching him just seemed good.

He grinned again. "Believe me, this isn't about Bella."

"It is." I slid my hands across the front of his T-shirt—Max has great pecs—and gave him a shove.

Rolling his eyes, he held up his hands. "Okay, it's about Bella. Peri… peri—you know, when you see out the corner of your eye?"

"Peripherally." I nodded. "How so?"

He linked his arms around my waist and pulled me forward so I stepped on his toes and our feet tangled dangerously. "I like women. Everyone knows it. I don't fall in love with women, though. So, how come I haven't had casual sex since Bella?"

"Because that wasn't casual sex. You really liked her." I leaned against him, purely to regain my balance, I'm sure.