Chapters (17)
Devan almost smiled despite the grimness of the situation. Come on, little fishy, he thought, trying to imbue his will with all the coercive force of a Farspeaking Herald. Take the nice bait. I know all about your lifebond. Keren told me about the night you fell ill—and about your performance over the death arrows and how you rescued her. But if you don’t admit that lifebond exists you might as well be calling into the hurricane for all she’ll hear you.
He pretended to be dubious. “I just don’t know, Herald. It would have to be a very strong emotional bond.”
The answer he was praying for came as a nearly inaudible whisper. “I love her. Is that enough?”
Devan almost cheered. Now that Dirk had admitted the existence of the lifebond, the idea stood a chance of working. “Then by all means, do your best. I’ll be just outside if you need me.”
Dirk sat heavily in the chair next to the bed, and took one bandaged, unresisting, flaccid hand in his own. He felt so helpless, so alone ... how in the names of all the gods could you call through emotions? And ... it would mean letting down barriers to his heart he’d erected years ago and meant to be permanent.
But they couldn’t have been permanent, not if she’d already made him admit that he loved her. It was too late now for anything but complete commitment—and besides, he’d been willing to die to save her, hadn’t he? Was the lowering of those barriers any greater a sacrifice? Was life really worth anything if she wasn’t sharing it?
But—where was he going to find her?
Suddenly he sat ramrod straight; he had no way of knowing how or where to call her from, but Rolan must!
He blanked his mind, and reached for Ahrodie.
She settled gently into his thoughts almost as soon as he called her. :Chosen?:
:I need your help—and Rolan’s,: he told her.
:Then you’ve seen—you know? You think we can help to call Her back? Rolan has been trying, but cannot reach Her, not alone. Chosen, my brother, I had been hoping you would understand and try!:
Then the other came into his mind. :Dirk-Herald—she has gone Elsewhere. Can you See?:
And amazingly, as Rolan projected strongly into his mind, he could See—a kind of darkness, with something that flickered feebly at the end of it.
:Do you call her. We shall give you strength and an anchoring. You can go where we cannot.: