I try not to think about how she ended up in the burn ward as I help her practice the magic trick. The first two lessons I’d given her had to end early so I could go cry in the bathroom. I’d felt guilty. My pity wasn’t helping her.

I don’t know if doing this is any more helpful than the physical therapy she’s getting. What I do know, because I’ve seen it before, is that magic gives kids something they didn’t have before, a kind of confidence. Pricked and prodded a dozen times a day, always being talked down to in an infantile voice; sick kids begin to regress and feel helpless. A magic trick, even one as simple as making a red ball vanish in one hand and reappear in another, gives them the upper hand in a small way when they interact with adults.

For a girl like Elsie, who is too afraid to look in the mirror, much less let other children look at her, magic gives her a special ability the other children don’t have. Scarred, unloved, she’s still magical.

“Remember to keep it a secret,” I remind her. I avoid giving her the long speech my grandfather would give. He didn’t ask you to keep it a secret, he commanded it. Even the smallest trick, the kind you might find on the back of a cereal box, he’d admonish you to protect, lest you met an untimely end like a handful of others who dared to reveal how our world worked.

He called it “the Secret Library.”

Elsie nods her head. I’d already explained to her the importance of the secret. The real power of a trick is its mystery. If you reveal all your mysteries, perhaps because you think it will make people like you, the power is gone and you’re back to being just as normal as them. It’s a power trip for sure. But I think Elsie can use whatever power trips she can get.

Her hands make the balls vanish and reappear again. “I can’t wait to show Mommy.”

The words are a kick to the stomach. That urge to forgive is so strong in Elsie, making the act even more evil.

I’m not supposed to know the details of how Elsie ended up here, but I can’t stop thinking like a cop whether I wear a uniform, a suit or yoga pants. When I see a hurt little girl, all kinds of instincts rise up.

Her mother is a piece of trash that moved from one drug-dealing boyfriend to another. She’d had a number of minor arrests for possession and an acquittal. She has never been convicted of dealing, although that’s what she obviously does. The court system looks at her like a troubled addict and will probably reunite Elsie with her sooner or later. Her daughter’s disfigurement will be remembered as an unfortunate “accident.” No one wants to believe a mother could really do that. They’ll all embrace the fiction and send Elsie back.