Against the Loveless World

SUSAN ABULHAWA was born to refugees of the 1967 war, when Israel occupied what was left of Palestine. She is the author of two international bestsellers, Mornings in Jenin, which was translated into 30 languages, and The Blue Between Sky and Water; as well as a poetry collection, My Voice Sought The Wind. She is the founder of Playgrounds for Palestine, and co-chair of Palestine Writes Literature Festival.
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ALSO BY SUSAN ABULHAWA
Mornings in Jenin
My Voice Sought the Wind
The Blue Between Sky and Water
In memory of Mame Lambeth, my person. And in memory of Aminah Abulhawa, the person I always waited for.

Contents
- I. Kuwait
- The Cube, East
- Dance, Ruby River
- Um Buraq
- II. Iraq
- The Cube, West
- Six Months
- III. Jordan
- The Cube, North
- Unsteady Earth
- IV. Palestine
- The Cube, South
- The Layers of Absence
- A World Beneath & “Our Spot” Above
- V. Jordan, Again
- The Cube, Up & Down
- Money Softens the Heart
- VI. Palestine, Always
- The Cube, the Space Between
- Anatomy of Home
- Chaos Theory
- Harvest
- Homecoming
- A Time for Us
- Redeeming History
- VII. Between Freedom
- The Cube, the Unreachable Beyond
- Day One
- Week Two
- Week Three
- Weeks Four & Five
- Weeks Six, Seven, Eight & Nine
- Joy
- Acknowledgments
GLOSSARY
abaya | A simple, loose overgarment or cloak, worn by some women in parts of North Africa and the Arabian Peninsula. In Kuwait, they are traditionally black and are worn by both men and women. |
adan | Muslim call to worship. |
ahlan | One of the many forms of “welcome” in Arabic. |
alhamdulillah | Gratitude to God. |
alhamdulillah assalameh | Gratitude to God for your safety (safe arrival). |
Allahu akbar | God is bigger. This phrase is used in every conceivable situation to invoke a belief that God is bigger than any circumstance, and God is all-knowing in whatever afflicts or blesses humans. |
Allah yustor | God protect. |
almas | Diamond. |
ammi, ammo | Palestinian colloquial for “uncle,” used to address older male relatives or any elder men as a sign of respect. |
argileh | Hookah, smoking pipe. |
aseeleh | A woman rooted in tradition and good manners. |
babbour | A type of kerosene camp stove. |
bismillah | In the name of God. |
bizir | Roasted watermelon seeds. |
booza | Ice cream. Booza dhahab is a popular ice cream in Kuwait. |
dabke | Literally means “stomping of the feet”; it is a native Levantine folk dance performed by Palestinians, Lebanese, Syrians, and Jordanians. The dance combines lines or circles of men and women, dancing in coordinated movements that vary from one region to another. |
dawali | Grape leaves. |
dhuhr | Noon. |
dinar | A unit of currency; the Kuwaiti dinar (KD) is roughly three times stronger than the US dollar. One KD equals approximately 3.37 USD as of late 2019. |
dishdasha | A loose, ankle-length garment, usually with long sleeves, worn throughout Africa, Persia, the Levant, the Arabian Peninsula, and Iraq. Men’s disdashas are simple, traditionally white or gray, whereas women’s dishdashas vary from simple to ornately patterned and colorful. |
diwaniya | A large room where men in the Gulf region receive male guests to conduct business or socialize. Traditional diwaniyas boast seating on floor cushions that line the walls around the room. Sitting or hosting a diwaniya is an important feature of the social and economic fabric of male life in Kuwait. |
dua’a | A prayer to God. |
dunum | A unit of land equivalent to approximately one quarter of an acre. |
el hilw ma byinsa el halawa | The sweet do not forget the sweets. |
enshallah | God willing. |
fajr | Sunrise. |
fajr salat | Sunrise worship, the first of five daily worships in Islam. |
fallahi | Singular masculine form of fallah, which refers to the peasant class. |
Fatiha | Generally means “the opening,” but specifically refers to the opening Surah in the Quran. In the context where it’s mentioned in the prose, the Fatiha is traditionally recited for the souls of the dead. |
fattoush | A Levantine salad common to Palestine, Lebanon, Jordan, and Syria. It typically includes lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, radishes, and fried pieces of pita bread. Some families also like to add green peppers, green onions, and parsley. In Arabic, the word fattoush is derived from fatteh, which literally means “crumbs” (which is also the origin of the word feta for cheese). |
frangie | Westerners. |
fuul | Fava beans, usually in the form of a paste dipped with spices and olive oil. |
ghada | Lunch, the biggest meal of the day in Arab societies. |
ghutra-o-egal | Traditional headwear of Arab men. The ghutra is the cloth head covering, which is held in place with an egal, a black chord, worn doubled on the crown of the head. |
habibi | Singular masculine form of “my beloved.” |
habibti | Singular feminine form of “my beloved.” |
haader, ya sit el kol | The literal translation—“present, lady of all”—is an affectionate way of saying “yes, ma’am.” |
ha’ek alay | A way of saying “my bad” or “please forgive me.” The literal translation doesn’t make sense in English: “your justice is on me.” |
hajjeh | A title of respect for an elderly woman, particularly if she undertook the Haj pilgrimage to Mecca. |
hammam | Public bathhouse associated with Islamic culture. Bathers begin by relaxing in steamy hot rooms, where they are then lathered and scrubbed with special loofas to remove layers of dead skin, followed by a massage with essential oils and a cooling period. Variations include dips in ice-cold water before the massage, or relaxation on hot tiles in dry rooms. |
hara | Neighborhood, typically in poorer areas. |
haram | Sinful. |
hawiyya | Identity, ID card. |
hummus | A protein-rich paste made with tahini (ground sesame seeds), garbanzo beans, garlic, olive oil, lemon juice, and salt. For centuries, hummus has been a staple food in Levantine societies—Palestine, Lebanon, Syria, and Jordan—though it is common throughout the Arab world. |
ibriq | Coffee- or teapot. |
immi | Palestinian colloquial for “my mother.” |
istaghfar Allah | Literally translates to “I seek forgiveness in God.” It is often uttered in proximity to transgressions, misdeeds, or evil as supplication. It is also used in humor. |
jafra | A popular dabke style that encompasses an entire genre of songs, which can vary significantly but still keep a basic rhythm that is recognizable from one song to another, lending itself to consistent forms of dabke dances. |
jameed | Hard, dry, salted yogurt made from sheep or goat milk. It is the main ingredient in mansaf. The milk is filtered through fine cheesecloth to make thick yogurt, to which salt is added daily to further thicken the yogurt and drain away the whey. When it is sufficiently thick, it is balled into spheres and dried for days in the shade. |
khala | One of the many ways to say “auntie.” |
Khaleeji | Of or pertaining to the region of the Arabian or Persian Gulf. |
khamr | Literal translation refers to a fermented or brewed substance. In the prose, it means alcohol. |
khaneeth | Faggot. |
khanjar | A traditional dagger with an extremely sharp curved edge, originally from Oman. Often ornate, they are worn by men for ceremonial occasions. |
kheir | Blessings. Can be used as a question—Kheir?—meaning “What?” |
khobz | Bread. |
knafe | A cheesy dessert. |
kuffiyeh | Checkered scarf, traditionally worn as men’s headdress, but popularly around the neck among young people of all genders. The black and white version is typical among Palestinians, and has come to symbolize Palestinian nationalism. A red and white version is also worn among Palestinians as well as Arabs throughout West Asia and North Africa. |
kuzbarat el ajooz | Literally meaning “spice of the old lady,” but specifically refers to wild Venus-hair, an herb. |
labneh | A type of soft cheese made by straining yogurt (laban). Typically eaten as a snack or light food in the Levant region (Palestine, Lebanon, Syria, and Jordan). |
mansaf | Popular Levantine dish of lamb cooked in a jameed sauce (fermented dried yogurt) and served over rice, with nuts and other garnishes. It is the national dish of Jordan, but also common in Palestine, Iraq, Syria, and some Gulf countries. |
maqlooba | Traditional Palestinian dish eaten throughout the Levant. It consists of layers of meat, rice, and vegetables in special spice mixtures. The name translates to “flipped” or “upside down,” because the pot is flipped upside down when served. |
mashawi | Grilled meats. |
matchboos | A national dish of Kuwait, Bahrain, and Qatar, it consists of rice cooked in a special spice mix (cardamom, peppercorns, cinnamon, coriander, cloves, cumin, nutmeg, paprika) with black lime and topped with a browned and spicy tomato sauce. |
mezze | Snack foods or appetizers, typically consisting of various cheeses, salads, and spreads (such as hummus, mhammara, labneh). |
mhammara | Translates to “reddened,” and refers to a dip originally from Syria. It is made from roasted Aleppo peppers, garlic, crushed walnuts, olive oil, pomegranate, and breadcrumbs. |
mistika | A resin obtained from the mastic tree (Pistacia lentiscus). Also called Arabic gum; used to flavor foods and desserts. |
mitkawteen | Non-Kuwaiti natives who are granted Kuwait citizenship. |
mlookhiya | The leaves of a jute plant, typically eaten as a stew by the same name. The dish is thought to have originated in ancient Egypt or India. It is traditionally cooked with chicken or chicken stock and garlic, and served with rice and squeezed lemon. |
mo’akhar | Part of Islamic marriage contracts, which list two types of mahr (dowry): The muqaddam is paid up front to seal the marriage. The mo’akhar is a deferred payment in the event of divorce or death of the husband. |
msakhan | A traditional layered Palestinian dish, with a large piece of taboun bread at the base, covered with heaps of caramelized onions and generous spicing with sumac, topped off with roasted chicken, toasted almonds, and pine nuts. |
mukhtar | The “chosen,” refers to an elder elected by the village council as a leader and arbiter of dispute. |
Nabulsi cheese | A white brined cheese that originated from Nablus, Palestine, 7000-9000 years ago. |
nahr | River. |
ney | A wind instrument similar to the flute, traditionally made from hollow cane or reed with holes for the fingers and thumb. It is one of the oldest musical instruments still in use. |
niqab | A face veil that leaves openings only for the eyes. |
osool | Derived from the word “origin” or “roots,” it refers in the prose to having principles and traditional good values. |
qabbah | Embroidered chest piece of a thobe (caftan). |
radah | Embroidered shoulder piece of a thobe (caftan). |
Rashida, habibit Baba | Rashida, Daddy’s beloved. |
Romi | Refers to the era of the Roman Empire. |
sabaho | Mornin’. Shortened way of saying “good morning.” |
salamtik, alf salamah | Literally means “blessings on you, a thousand blessings,” but is meant to convey gratitude to God for someone’s wellness, especially after being ill. |
salat | Worship. |
shabab | The youth. |
shabka | Literally means “binding” or “web.” It refers to the gold jewelry, including the wedding ring, that’s meant to “tie” the newlyweds. It is considered an important part of weddings in Arab societies, as it is also meant to offer some financial security for the bride. |
shakshouka | An Arab dish that originated in Morocco, whereby eggs are poached in a tomato base with chili peppers, garlic, cinnamon, cumin, cayenne, paprika, nutmeg, and other spices. Shakshouka is among a long list of Arab cuisines being appropriated as “Israeli food” even though these dishes predate Israel by hundreds of years. |
sharmoot | Whore, singular masculine form; in context, “sharmoot, ibn sharmoota”: whore, son of a whore. |
sharmoota | Whore, singular feminine form. |
sidi | Palestinian colloquial for “grandfather” or “papa.” |
sirwal | Baggy trousers made from light material, typically worn under a dishdasha in Arab countries. Different forms of the sirwal are also worn in Iran, India, and Pakistan. |
sitt | Ms. |
sitti | Palestinian colloquial for “grandmother” or “granny.” |
souq | Market. |
subhan Allah | Praise God. |
taboon | A clay oven used for thousands of years in Palestine to bake bread. It has an opening at the bottom where the fire is stoked. Traditionally used communally by villagers or large families. The flat bread made in a taboon is called by the same name. |
takht | Literally means “bed,” but refers to the musical ensemble typically from Egypt and the Levant and consisting of the oud, qanun, kamanjah, ney, riq, and darbakka instruments. |
taqseem | Literally means “division,” but refers to instrumental improvisations that precede traditional musical compositions. |
tarab | There is no equivalence to this word in the English language. It describes the emotional, even spiritual, transformation that occurs when one feels a convergence with music. The phenomenon of being “transported” by music is epitomized by tarab. Appreciating classical Arabic songs involves an understanding of this concept. |
tatreez | Embroidery. |
tfadaloo | Welcome (plural). |
thobe | Traditional embroidered caftan. |
thuhr | Afternoon. |
um | Mother of. |
waleh | A versatile word in colloquial Arabic that can range from an insult to an endearment, depending on context. Waleh is the feminine form of wala. An English equivalent might be the urban use of the words girl and boy. Said among friends, “girl” is familiar and endearing. But said by a white supremacist to a black or brown woman, it is an insult. The context in this book is the former. |
wudu | Ablution. Ritual cleansing in Islam before worship practices. |
ya Sater | O Protector. Referencing God to call for protection, it is an expression meant to convey caution, trepidation, or generally fear of the unknown. |
yalla | A versatile word in the Arabic language. Translates to “let’s go” but can be used in a wide range of contexts with different meanings. For example, it can mean “get over it,” “forget it,” “do it,” or “get moving.” |
yaqoot | Ruby; gem. |
yis’ed soutik | Literal translation is “may your voice be happy.” It is meant to convey love and joy at hearing the voice of a dear one. |
yumma | Palestinian fallahi (peasant) colloquial for “mother.” |
za’atar | Thyme, often crushed and combined with sesame to be consumed with olive oil and bread. |
zaffa | Traditional wedding procession leading the newlyweds and wedding party through the streets to the wedding reception. Typically the procession is led by dancers and a musical ensemble of bendir drums, bagpipes, and horns. |
zaghareet | Ululations—long, high-pitched vocal trilling produced by emitting a loud tone accompanied by a rapid back-and-forth movement of the tongue. It is typically practiced by women to express great joy. |
zakira | Memory. |
zeit | Oil; usually refers to olive oil. |
zeit-o-za’atar | Olive oil and za’atar (thyme), a snack commonly eaten in Palestinian society. |