Chapters (37)
- Cover
- A PARISIAN AFFAIR AND OTHER STORIES
- BOULE DE SUIF1
- A PARISIAN AFFAIR
- A WOMAN’S CONFESSION
- COCKCROW
- MOONLIGHT
- AT SEA
- A MILLION
- FEMME FATALE
- MONSIEUR JOCASTE
- TWO FRIENDS
- AWAKENING
- THE JEWELS
- TRAIN STORY
- REGRET
- MINOR TRAGEDY
- THE CHRISTENING
- COWARD
- ROSE
- IDYLL
- MOTHER SAUVAGE
- MADAME HUSSON’S ROSE KING1
- ENCOUNTER
- HAPPINESS
- A BIT OF THE OTHER
- LOVE
- HAUTOT & SON
- NEW YEAR’S GIFT1
- THE HORLA1
- DUCHOUX
- THE LULL-A-BYE
- MOTHER OF INVENTION
- WHO KNOWS?
- LAID TO REST1
- THE NECKLACE
- Notes
Choked by racking sobs, he had to stop in his tracks. Having recovered a little he went on, only to feel a sudden stab in his heart. There, behind that bush … a pair of lovers! He ran forward and saw their silhouettes united in a seemingly endless kiss before they quickly ran off at his approach. He dared not call out, knowing full well that his own girl would not respond. He was desperately afraid now of coming upon them all of a sudden. The music of the quadrilles with its piercing solo cornets, the mock gaiety of the flute and the scraping of the fiddles pulled at his own heartstrings and deepened the pain he continued to feel.
Suddenly it occurred to him that she might have gone back in! Yes, that was it! She must have returned. He had lost all sense of proportion, he was stupid, he had been carried away by all the silly suspicions and fears that always haunted him. In one of those periods of strange calm which occur during periods of the blackest despair he turned and began to make for the café again.
He took in the whole room at a single glance. She was not there. He checked all the tables, and once again came face to face with the three women. He must have looked the picture of dejection for the three burst out laughing. Rushing out again, he ran back to the island. He threw himself into the coppices and stopped to listen once more. It was some time before he could hear anything save the roaring in his own ears. Finally, however, he thought he could hear some way ahead a shrill little laugh he knew only too well. Creeping forward he fell to his knees and crawled on, parting the branches cautiously as he went. His heart was beating so wildly in his chest that he could hardly breathe. Two voices were murmuring. He could not make out what they were saying. Then they fell silent again.
He had a sudden furious desire to run away, not to see, not to know and to keep on running to escape from the raging passion with which he was consumed. He would return to Chatou, catch a train and never come back. He would never see her again. Just as suddenly her face appeared in his mind’s eye. He saw her as she was waking up next to him in their warm bed. He saw her snuggle up to him and throw her arms round his neck. Her hair was loose and a little tangled over her brow. Her eyes were still closed and her lips parted, waiting for the first kiss of the day. The thought of this morning’s embrace filled him with unbearable regret and frantic desire.