"Ah ... good." Athol obviously wanted to say something else, but could find no satisfactory words. "Remarkable thing for a woman, what? Going out to the Crimea."

"Yes," Rathbone agreed, waiting for Athol to add whatever it was he really wanted to say.

"Don't suppose it's easy to settle down when you come back," Athol continued, glancing at Rathbone curiously. He had very round, very direct eyes. "Not sure it's entirely a good thing."

Rathbone knew exactly what he meant, and thought so too. It had forced Hester to see and hear horror that no person should have to know, to experience violence and deprivation, and to find within herself not only strength but intelligence, skill and courage she might not have conceived, let alone exercised, at home in England. She had proved herself the equal of many men whose authority she would never have questioned in normal circumstances. Sometimes she had even shown herself superior, when the crisis had been great enough. It upset the natural, accepted order of things. One could not unlearn knowledge so gained. And she could not and would not pretend.

Rathbone agreed, but he found himself resenting the fact that Athol Sheldon should remark it. Instantly he was defensive.

"Not entirely painless, certainly; but if you consider the work of someone like Miss Nightingale, you cannot but be enormously grateful for the difference she will make to medical care. We may never count the millions of lives her methods will save, not to mention the sheer suffering relieved."

"Yes ..." Athol nodded, but there was no easing of the expression in his face. He pushed his hands into his pockets and then took them out again. "Of course. Admirable. But it changes one."

“I beg your pardon?"

"Changes one," Athol repeated, moving restlessly around the room before turning to face Rathbone. "A woman is designed by God and by nature to create a gentle and safe place, a place of inner peace and a certain innocence, if you like, for those who are obliged to face horror or evil." He frowned, looking intensely at Rathbone. "It changes a person, you know, the sight of real evil. We should protect women from it... so they in turn can protect us from ourselves." He spread his large hands wide. "So they can renew us, revive our spirits, and keep a haven worth striving for, worth ... fighting or dying in order to—to protect!"

"Has Miss Latterly done something that disturbs you, Mr. Sheldon?" Rathbone asked anxiously.